Let in the Embers

Life is so beautiful right now. All my recent anxieties have been resolved, and hopefully I will be able to start anew and prove myself in that class.
I dressed up as the queen of hearts today at school. It was kinda sad, hardly anyone else was dressed up. Maybe cause it kinda snowed. And then rained. But still!
That costume gave me strength today. I had an appointment with one of my professors that I was nervous about. But wearing a pretty dress, striped socks, and heels gave me confidence. At the very least, it served as a good ice breaker. But everything worked out wonderfully and I am blissfully happy.
It reminded me of this one time a girl bore her testimony in sacrament. She was new in the ward or something, and she was kind of introducing herself, and she basically said, "I have a past. You may look at me and see my tattoos, but don't judge me for it. These gave me strength at certain times in my life."
Strength.
And I believe it, I think it's true. But is it a sin to be drawing strength from material things?
I probably just say that because I've been reading too much St. Augustine.

Anyways, here's the point of the thing: I go to a nice school. People here are so nice. I never feel threatened around here. Maybe this is true of most colleges, and I'm just comparing this place to high school where people are mean and retarded.
I just wanted to give BYU some kudos, after all the crap it gets from the Daily Universe.

I'd Rather

I'd rather write than read.
Drink water than a soda.
Run than stand still.
Watch the clouds than the TV.
Climb a tree than a mountain.
Swim in a pool than the ocean.
Shower in the morning than at night.
Kiss a frog than a pinecone.
Cut class than cut my husband's beautiful curls.
Wade in the ocean than a river.
Sing in a forest than in the shower.
Daydream than nightdream.
Peace than adrenaline.
Sepia than monochrome.
Soft than shiny.

Here's my list,
Love,
Jinny

Tears of Europa

"Tears of Europa" is just a catchy sounding phrase I made up to help me remember that Jupiter's moon Europa is the one that's covered in ice. The train of thought behind this goes something like: tears=water, water + outer solar system = ice. So now you know too. :)

I got off school at 10am today, and here's what I did:
1. Went to DI, bought a Mexican dress that I'm going to take apart and use for my Halloween costume (Queen of hearts). I'm sad to take it apart though, it's so cute!! Not on me, but still...
2. Went to fake dollar store by my house to look for cheap little-girl-princess-tiaras. Didn't have any, and I got some sort of AIDS from touching stuff in their clearance bin....
3. First adventure to Savers in Orem - it was amazing. I found the perfect dress for my costume. It's a little too small, but I can fix it.
4. Cleaned the house, did the laundry, danced around to Belle and Sebastian, mopped up our leaky toilet, etc.
5. Made raspberries and cream jello salad! :D So so so so good. That recipe's a keeper.

What I didn't do:
Homework, naturally.

We are all made of stars

Today I'm wearing a glow in the dark star necklace. It's on a piece of hemp string. It was one of those things I made in girls camp and shoved in a drawer and recently took back with me after going through my belongings in California.
I want to find someplace dark so I can glow. I almost want to run to the planetarium and bug one of the TA's by glowing during a lab. But then I decided they don't like me well enough yet for me to start bugging them. That's just a whole different level of liking people-ness.
So I have to be patient and wait until nighttime. There are no streetlights on the block where I live. Kinda creepy. But maybe then, I can glow. :)