Meaning

I looked up at the sky tonight and saw Orion and his hunting dogs peeking through the palm fronds above my front door. It's kind of comforting to know that at this point I've pretty much had the constellations beaten into my memory, even though my time working for the Astronomy department was not altogether a pleasant one.  The stars are my friends, and a welcome sight they were tonight. It's been a while since I've taken the time to look up on a clear night, so it seems I've rediscovered an old habit of mine of stalling outside to look at the stars. 

One of my biggest challenges right now is not having goals. Some days I'll just find myself in a stupor, thinking, what now, what's the meaning of all this? At work I file things away only to have them pulled out again, and then need to be filed back. At home I wash dishes and put them away only to pull them out for the next meal and have them end up in the sink again. It's this reoccurring cycle of actions, seemingly mundane but altogether important, that I get buried underneath sometimes.

What am I working towards? Who, or what, do I want to become? These have been questions that I've had to consider, as my life lays wide open in from of me. What I know so far is 2 things: to give things meaning, and to create. Heck, all of our lives seem insignificant at some point. But if we give things meaning, realize the worth of small things, and recognize the worth of our humble creations, our lives will be less mundane. 

So hold me to this - I need to get my butt off the computer, especially kick my habit of aimlessly surfing Tumblr or Youtube, and live more meaningfully.

I'll keep you posted. 

The Moon Says Hello to the Evening Star

On the first summer night of the year, we payed our respects to the city of Ogden and played some metal.
It was a long drive, not many friends came, but between other bands and family it was a pretty good crowd. I took an insane amount of pictures. I learned that you can't headbang very well in 4-inch heels. We met two guys from Katagory V. We ate at Red Robin with a party of 16. I slept the whole way home. It was pretty epic.
The stars and moon are much brighter in Ogden, I got a picture of the moon and evening star (I'm assuming that's what it was), doesn't do it justice at all, but still neat, yes? Maybe?
So, three more shows in the next four weeks. I sure hope my energy doesn't give out on me! Chugging vitamin drinks should help, right?
Today I braided my hair, did pilates, and wore a white t-shirt all day. I also made up a song about wondering where my husband was. I guess he must have snagged a last-minute job this morning and left while I was still asleep. Either that or he already had this job and I had just forgotten about it.
Oh, days off. I wish I had more food in the fridge. Love, Jin.

Tears of Europa

"Tears of Europa" is just a catchy sounding phrase I made up to help me remember that Jupiter's moon Europa is the one that's covered in ice. The train of thought behind this goes something like: tears=water, water + outer solar system = ice. So now you know too. :)

I got off school at 10am today, and here's what I did:
1. Went to DI, bought a Mexican dress that I'm going to take apart and use for my Halloween costume (Queen of hearts). I'm sad to take it apart though, it's so cute!! Not on me, but still...
2. Went to fake dollar store by my house to look for cheap little-girl-princess-tiaras. Didn't have any, and I got some sort of AIDS from touching stuff in their clearance bin....
3. First adventure to Savers in Orem - it was amazing. I found the perfect dress for my costume. It's a little too small, but I can fix it.
4. Cleaned the house, did the laundry, danced around to Belle and Sebastian, mopped up our leaky toilet, etc.
5. Made raspberries and cream jello salad! :D So so so so good. That recipe's a keeper.

What I didn't do:
Homework, naturally.